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procrastinate: in-the-process..

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 21:36:45 GMT

lalala its 6am and i am still here lala-ing away..
*my smelly smoking neighbour is still awake also?!!*
not that i don't want to sleep, but i did like nil stuffs since 10pm just now.
yes procrastinator i am!
julia is as if lying there gasping for air, waiting for me to nurse her.
and i hate her for having the irritating ectopic pregnancy which is so not fun to deal with! ish!!!
but i couldn't care less! deadline is extended anyway, i've got another 2 days to finish it up.
~oh my 2 days!!! HELP!!!!! ~
i'm more concern about the number of rockfold cheese i collected from mousehunt, and the stupid silly card i got from mythmonger. HAHA..
*i just reached level 16 in mythmonger?! *
if only i can channel all my time reading stupid mousehunt and mythmonger forum to the time i read my articles and textbook, i might have finished half of my case study by now! *shrugs*

ok i better continue reading.
after this sunday, time to get my new precious ipod touch and time for some fun in the club!

yummz liquor do wait for me! :)

the end of o&g! :)

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 18:13:31 GMT

its the last day of school for week 9, and lets rejoice shall we! :)
and we officially finished our O&G! *tears of joy*
finally i'm set free from the female repro system nightmare!! :SS
and happily welcoming the arrival of peads! :)
*ok i just skipped my first peads lecture, thanks to the case study.*

fine no i don't detest every part of O&G.
i must say i enjoyed some of the lab session quite a bit. :)

its not everyday you can play with some quak-quak vagina speculum.

and its not everyday you get to see such angelic babies :)

ok although they are fake, but still, they are adorable.

ok this is for posing purposes, she taken! :)

i must admit, some babies are not that cute.

and even worst when they're crying...

but when this funny thing can do some acrobats, its not too bad after all..

ok i must say this is the most disgusting thing ever, its cold, slimy, soft to touch, and just smells...
but this wonderful thing kept all of us alive while we're inside our mummy's tummy.
and this thing can cause a hell lot of trouble to the mummy if its not properly expelled.
oh this thing is your, placenta. its edible, just fyi...

unless you're in O&G class, you'll not be able to play with a SUPER FAKE testes.

its so fake that i don't mind having balls on my face. :X

and best of all last but not least, introducing the.................

boobies........
ok this is for practice purposes, and 2 out of 3 are abnormal boobs, they've got mass inside somewhere.
that's how they teach us to distinguish normal boobs from abnormal boobs.

and other than O&G class, i guess its hard to find anywhere else you get to touch all you want eh? learn about all these. :)

ok there's another set of photos, which are really R-rated, so can't post up here.
it'll serve as a memory for me, i still LoL when i see it now. haha...

the shadowing exp...

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 19:40:50 GMT

so shadowing finally comes to an end for me.
for some reason i actually like shadowing, and i wonder am i the only one who likes it.
a lot of my friends just wish to get over and done with it asap.
as for me, i take my own sweet time to finish it, and even go for extra.
well its much much better than our normal attachments.
i can licitly ignore the ever-annoying call bell.
they will not ask me to do even the slightest chore like taking para etc.
and best of all, i don't have to scurry around the ward doing those mundane routine.
feel so pampered that i can just follow my clinician when she's making her rounds.

and i get to learn a lot from the dr's round too.
like seriously too information overload.
too bad they are not my patients, as in i'm never involve in their care, so a lot of times i am very lost during the rounds as all the drs in the team know the patients quite well already.
and drs are really fun ppl. they are so willing to teach, and are ready to learn from each other.
the consultant takes a long time to debrief his 2 students everytime after the rounds.
the reg will point out new things to her MO to note.
and sometimes the consultant will even ask and learn his MO :)
i think this is so lacking in nursing? no?

speaking of drs.
i was rather impressed by this Dr.S during my few weeks there.
she really 'zai' imo.
and somehow from the kaypoh-ish internet, i found out that she is from KUCHING!!
and possibly from GRSS!!!!!
ah so proud of her. :):)

many of you may not know, my shadowing clinician's speciality is neurology.
so i've been lurking in and out of neuro ward throughout my whole shadowing time.
its been an eye opener for me really.
but i don't know if i want to choose neuro as a possible speciality now.
i once quite like neuro, but after this shadowing, i might think twice.
well perhaps neuro really is too complicated for me to handle.
and seeing the same type of patients day in and day out can be quite boring to me.
maybe i shall just go to gen med ward, then i can see every other thing under the sun?
hmmmm....
whatever it is, I HATE O&G!
ok i know there's no connection wrt the above statement.
just being random.

so shadowing comes to an end.
its time to do my case study.
shit i barely started.
ah and the blog?!!!
oh well....
*fingers crossed*
i WILL be able to finish it one time.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 06:51:37 GMT

omg i miss miss miss miss him.................
like seriously miss him................

you all might not know who this fellow is, but AHHHHH i literally jump in joy when i see this pic!!!!!!

this might not be the best picture.
and he seemed to be pissed off in this pic, but this is the only one i can get from sean's facebook!
*craving for more*

i miss miss miss miss you so much la little eugene...
omg worst than love sick.. hurhur....

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 16:05:00 GMT

chicken soup + violin + coaching wednesday,
last day of school + steamboat thursday,
alcohol-turned-cup-noodle; zouk-turned-rondalla friday,
more coaching + kfc saturday,
sit,slack,sleep + bbq sunday,
ffk + raffles link dinner monday,
pink tank + ikea meatball tuesday,
and finally the hotel breakfast + fruity alcohol wednesday.

i think i really had my share of fun (and fat!).
and its finally time for some serious studying and working.
2 case studies, health assessments' stress, case presentation, skills to perfect before exam, PBL!!, my oh and my irritating stats!

thank God for the good time spent with all my friends.
and thank God for the blessing in every way possible.
shall i say i'll end my recess week now, and work for my case studies.
*i better be*

ahhhh and did i mentioned my little niece is SOOOO cute.
the happy-happy baby.... :)
if peads enable me to see such happy baby everyday, i really don't mind. lol...

the.love.hate.cca.2

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 16:27:46 GMT

like seriously, a SIGHHHHHHH of relieve..
one thing i dread and procrastinate for weeks is finally down..
WALALALA!!! :D

thank God for keeping me calm and collected and just feel like doing it just now.
else i don't know when will i ever start.
its not that hard after all, just need some thinking. :)

finally that thing will be off my hands like, forever.
and nope i won't miss you.

ok i know you had no idea what i'm crapping here.
but its ok.
its OVER...

~*~*~

on a side note, its the last week of school!!
bash is coming up, I WANT TO GO :S
and i feel like going somewhere for a break before resuming the second part of school.
ok i better not start talking about school, i'll get very depressed.
but ARRRRRR when you have commitment, it ruins everything, like seriously everything :(

to end with a nice thing, i might be a owner of a ipod touch! :D
don't remind me of the price, i hear no evil....

Friday, September 04, 2009

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 16:03:12 GMT

*tap tap tap on shoulder*
"hello mr john!"
*no response!*
*check airway*
*no breathing*
*check pulse, NO PULSE!!!*
CODE BLUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok that's the simplified version of what we did today for lab.
it really is quite fun! at least i had fun, being the blur stupid first group going, doing like totally nothing when all my friends are busy scurrying around saving 'john'!

"one and two and three and four and five
one and two and three and four and ten
one and two and three and four and fifteen..."
"give adrenaline 1mg (1:10000) IV bolus!"
"missy missy what happen to my uncle? why are you all surrounding him....."
"get ready for intubation. is the set ready?"
"i cannot seem to set a plug here. all the veins' seems to be collapse already"

i am not ready for collapse case.
i think i'll freak out if i ever need to press the 'code blue' button.
yes check A-airway, B-breathing, C-circulation, D-disability, E-environment. i know them.
its more than that, its about prioritizing what needs to be done first, and its about doing things fast!
and its a totally different thing when you need to DO it yourself!

"omg VF!!"
"circulation nurse, quick prepare for defib!"
"noted, 150J!"
"charge"
"STAND CLEAR!!!"
~*PZZZZZTTTTT!*~
and the ECG rhythm shows:
----------------------------------------------------------

yup i feel like the asystole rhythm who need STAT CPR! :(
until i get my sinus rhythm back, i pretty much dead meat.....

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 03:52:16 GMT

i'm so screwed, i'm just basically screwing my own life.
when i can finally sleep at 1am last night, i thought i can have a good night sleep and wake up n hours later feeling fresh and recharged.
unfortunately,i woke up an hour later, and i hopped over to my comp to check updates from US Open, little did i know that sparked up the whole insomnia thing in me.
irritated after lying on bed aimlessly for another 30mins, unable to fall asleep, i started watching tennis, till almost 5.30am, before i finally fall asleep, after waking up few times in between.
instead of my deserving >8 hours of sleep, i managed only ~6 hours in the end.
this headache of mine had been here with me since last night.
feeling so tired and i think its time to pop in some paracet. :(

i have yet to finish my resuscitation readings and tomorrow will be the conclusion of our critical are portion.
i have yet to finish my neuro readings and friday is coming soon.
basically i have yet to catch up on a single thing related to school.
don't you think i'm just SO DAMN SCREWED!!!

life's screwed, studies' screwed!
omg what on earth did i do, am doing and should be doing!
RAWRRRRRR...

please grant me a good night sleep tonight, no longer having free day like today, its the freaking 8am stats lecture tmr :(

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 15:22:09 GMT

so tomorrow is Merdeka day!
when the whole nation is having holiday, me being across the causeway will have 6 hours of lesson =(
was watching those released short film from 15Malaysia, and i must say i am quite impress by some of them.
but some, i find it hard to catch the message that the director is trying to produce.
nonetheless i think its a nice effort of them to come up with those films, something that feels like home =D
so do check them out if you have time.
personally i like potong saga, chocolate, house and halal.
potong saga and halal are two funny ones, where has chocolate and house are two sentimental ones, all with their own theme.
the tree is a tad too cheem, where as the son is a bit sad for my liking.
lumpur will be released tomorrow, so stay tuned.

and suddenly all those linked me to few ads for Malaysia's 50th Kemerdekaan.

"Our children are colour blind, shouldn't we keep them that way?"
i wonder if i am that pure and innocent and not at all racist last time.
after spending 2 years in singapore, i thought i am more adapted to respecting other races etc.
but unfortunately, when i visited kl last vacation, the racism in me just surfaced unintentionally.
it just feels so weird, that when i reflected back at my day at night, then i realised that i still have that small act of racism in me.
perhaps that's how i'm brought up, the environment that moulded me that way, the people around that influenced me to have such actions.

so menjelang malaysia's 52nd birthday, lets look at malaysia as ONE!
let's make it satu malaysia, satu suara. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAYSIA.

p/s: i <3 kangxi lai le, it makes me laugh out VERY loudly as if i'm insane, i hope my neighbour is ok with my odd laughter at 1am.. lol...

Friday, August 28, 2009

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 16:31:06 GMT

i think my rondalla conductor is one of the best-tempered conductor ever.
dunno how come some of the members won't stop playing when conductor 'cut' already. and it gets rather annoying at times.
never tune instruments before hand, and tune half way while others are playing?!
player can go MISSING when we need her to play.
player totally had no idea where should they start, and blaming it on missing bar number.
and blur exco keep on doing funny silly things.
if its me, or some of the conductors i've worked with, it'll be 'puff' some flying object flying towards you, and just be prepared to listen to all the granny stories for hours.
but this conductor of mine just, act as if nothing happens, and just finish off our practice in a good mood.
i salute him, i totally salute him!

and double bass is SOOO difficult! :(